I'm

Terribly upset right now.
I dont know why I overreacted in such a way.
I trust you I do
but I'm so scared of losing you.
I'm so vulnerable
I was just deciding I was going to let you in,
and then something happens,
to make me go back and start all over again.
I'm just so insecure about myself,
that perhaps I'm simply not good enough.
All these girls want you,
and you could have any of them,
but for some reason you chose me.
All you'd have to do is decide they're better,
decide I'm not good enough,
and you could move on so quickly...
You could easily leave me if you wanted...
You don't NEED me.
I just know...
that somehow I'm just wont be good enough.
and I'm so scared.
I'm jealous of any girl that wraps her arms around you,
because in during that moment,
they're holding my world in their hands.

Why

Do I always think less of myself.
As if I'm not good enough.
I'll never be good enough.


You can tell me a million times
I'm perfect, I'm lovely.
I've heard the rhymes.


I'm so vulnerable.
It's unbelieveable.
and when I think I'm ready,
My feet get unsteady.


You're so perfect,
and I love you so much.
I'm always so scared
Scared to lose your touch.


I always feel I'm lacking
Like you deserve better,
because Im slacking

Because I'm insecure
about who I am,
thinking I'll never be up to par,
whenever things get hard
I try to stick it through,
But I some how manage to think
I'm just not good enough,
not good enough for you.

I'm not perfect

Baby,
I know I don't make things clear,
about how much I love you and need you near,
Probably because I dont know where to begin,
and when I start, I'll never want this paragraph to end.

I truely dont know where to start,
I'm not one to say what i feel in my heart
I suppose that's because of my fear of vulnerability...

But I love you, that's a good start...
But this is so much more than that,
More than just my heart.
My body, mind and soul,
They all know the true facts.

But it's all so hard to say...
I don't want this to come out in the wrong way.
So I choose my words carefully,
these words I hope, will make you see.

I'm in love with you
and I love you more every day.
I'll be here for you,
in any way.

Yes, I'm your girlfriend,
and I hope your wife by the end.
But dont worry,
I can be your best friend.
If you dont see why
Now I quote Ty,
"she's like one of the guys"

I listen, and I listen good,
No matter what you say,
I'll think no less of you,
I'll stand where I've always stood.

I'll be here, I'll stay here,
As long as you want me
you don't need to fear
You've got me inevitably.

Sure I'm young,
But I'm not naive
I know what I want,
and I know what I need.

My mind isn't cursory
I can grasp reality,
I know love is no short story
Life is full of possibilities.

My soul is not weak,
There are no bounds
in which it can't reach
Even with no grounds,
to stable myself around.

You see these words I've wrote to you,
They are prominent and true
Note them,
and etch them into your heart,
And here's finally the end,
Becaue I found where to start

Admit it.

Sometimes I wonder,
What'm I doing here?
How bad can things get,
until I shed at least one tear.


I dont know why,
Why I need you here.

I dont like it
I dont like it when you're so near.


I wont admit it,
I dont like vulnerability.

But some how I believe it,
when you say you need me.


I'll never tell you what I feel,
I'll leave you questioning,
wondering if it's real.


I never open my mouth to you,
and speak the words,
that my heart holds true,
But I believe you,
[Should I believe you,]
When you say you love me too.


I'm not sure what will become of me,
I guess only time will show.

These scars they know...
These things just dont last for me.


Just know I care
though I'm not willing to share
Even if it's the death of me,
admitting that I'm scared.

Poem

I just want you to know
It hurts to see you go.
It's like being in the first row,
waiting to get your heart broke.

It's hard to know you'll leave,
When it's you leaving me.
When you drive accross the state,
to go to your university.

It'll be the same either way,
You're leaving me one day,
be it tommorrow, or be it today.
It'll still feel the same.

Deserted and lost,
Love always comes with a cost.
I'm not surprised you'll leave,
these things always happen to me.

Humble sighs. [song for kevin]

All My life,
My heart has roamed,
searching for that place...
A place to call home.

But in your heart,
is where home resides.
I realize now,
with your humble sighs.

All this time
I've wondered why
I never felt right
But laying here tonight
your breath in my ear
Your heart sings to me
"Home is near"

In your heart
is where home resides
I realize now
with you humble sighs.

Why'd you come around
so late, so late,
But now you're my home ground,
my hearts escape.

because It's your heart
where mine resides
I realize this now...
Never leave my side

I love my boyfriend.

"My heart is your home town"
-Kevin Lampley.

"rain pours over the smoothest skin
this is the sweetest tasting sin
I have ever known
this is this is where I belong
say you'll stay
and never leave me here by myself
I could never make it here all alone

on the chicago shoreline
all I know is I am yours and you are mine
just close your eyes and let our lips touch
I never knew I could love you this much

home is 400 miles away
but baby please just stay [say you'll stay]
here with me and I promise
you'll miss it less and less with every kiss
as we stare at the stars above
I know we'll rise in love

on the Chicago shoreline
all I know is I am yours and you are mine
just close your eyes and let our lips touch
I never knew i could love you this much this much

but baby when they all stop and stare i won't care
I don't give a damn what these heartless people think
because I'll be here when the city starts to sink
beneath lake michigan I swear I'll stand right where I am
[right where I am]

right here on the Chicago shoreline
all I know is that I am yours and you are mine
just close your eyes as our lips touch
I love you I love you so much"