It's not quite new years yet, but idk when I'll be on.
-waking up, smirnoffs everywhere. 4 lovely girls in my room.
-"You got a rope and some scissors?!" "Yeah me & my mom are part of the KKK. He's just a plan. I don't love that nigga." Phahahah.
-going down to colombus with Haylee, meeting her dad, and step mom.
-Realizing I was pregnant.
-"FINGERNAILS!!!" *decrepid voice and hand motions*
-Looking up how to cure painful nipples. LMAO
-Libby returning to school from the psych ward.
-Losing Kevin, and myself.
-Becoming best friends with my 'angel' Ben Copeland.
-Bring Ben his stuff, picking up libby's stuff
-Hiding Ben from Libby in the car when i had to drop off... something.
-Feb.9th, first time sex with Ben. <3
-Feb 12th, abortion, thank god for libby.
-fighting with kevin in the car about Andrea, while ben's in teh car too.
-yelling "No, GROW UP KEVIN" "No kayla, you're the one that needs to grown up"
"okay, i'll start with you. WE'RE OVER"
-Officially breaking up with kevin.
-Spending the night with ben for a whole weekend while libby and joey watched over beaux and lassie.
-Her finding out about Ben.
-Fighting with Jessica "SLUT"
-''I hate you. end of story. You can go turn off the light now.'' Lol
-Dying my hair blonde
-Changing Libby's Hair
-Failing Art
-Car Accident
-'i feel like i have george washington hair right now' LMFAO
- Ogre heritage. Lol. "I've been noticing my skin looks pretty olive lately." haha. <---even though IDK WTF THIS MEANS
-Kevin's in here, he's spying on us. Did you just get his tweet?!
-breaking kevin's bowl
-Ben's bronchitis
-Ben puking and asking me out. LMAO.
-Ariell Haut
-Ben crying to me about James
-Getting Beans
-"I'm too lazy, idgaf about that ash tray" *proceeds to ash on floor*
-Seeing my sister. Fighting with Don "Hello stranger number 2"
-Doing Beaux as my art project
-Becoming friends with libby again
-Studdying real hard to pass school
-Doing Ben as my Art final.
-Ben pissin everywhere on Me and Kody LMAO
-Ben going to jail.
-YOU TWO CANNOT SLEEP IN THE SAME ROOM! *Grandpa Don banging on door*
-Making love crying my eyes out,before we thought he was giong to jail for 6 months.
-Getting told i couldnt walk at graduation.
-My mom doing something about it.
-Getting my nipples pierced, almost fainting
-Got Hair cut
-Dad and grandparents coming up
-Graduation.
-"i'm not gonna lie, i wouldnt have minded you having that baby so much, if it were maybe, like, ben's kid instead of kevin's. ya know, not half black"-My dad.
-Ben losing his house wiht his parents, moved in.
-Mom moved away to Alabama, June 26th
-Ben's birthday, x.
-Seeing jessica a lot more since it was summer. <3
-Haylee telling me "we dont have time to be friends anymore"
-Ben gets job in cleveland.
-Jessica gets job at Winking lizard!
-"i like your beard" LMAO "Man. I love @kayla_estell's beard SO MUCH"
-and suddenly i cant remember much from august or september...
-Blow job in car with ben, and 3 other people...
-Meeting Micah, awesome time in cleveland.
-Awesome steaks down in carolton
-My dad's got cancer again
-Ben's fake piss pass
-Parties at Ashleys
-My birthday, Hookah, Bestie bracelets, muggswigs, bowl, smoking. FUN.
-My first birthday sex
-gettin my tongue pierced
-My walgreens and taco bell interview.
-Ben Moving away.
-"i can feel the vibrations on my crotch. Lol. RT @Kayla_Estell: I feel like im creamin my pants this stereo bumps so hard."
-Jessica's birthday :)
-"To everyone going to NSN tonight: Fuck you. Seriously, you're an asshole. Drop dead."
- REALLY high shower with Jessica.
-rainforests in bathrooms. (New Tradition
-Brandyn Christoffel-DONE. Jerk.
-Thanksgiving, High as balls.
-"my ice isn't wet...my ice is all dry."
-Ben picking up his shit, quickie sex.
-"he was gross, just gross, he looks slytherin like"
-Giving Jessica "How High Am I" Book, and Mancala
-Pineapple Express
-Getting fired from my first JOB. BITCH.
-Going down to see my mom, and that's where I'm at noww.
-Me:"He keeps talkin to itchy"
Jessica: "Itchy? Lol what?"
Me: "His imaginary friend...
Me: LMAO. I'm just kidding. That's my Mom's dogs name."
Jessica: "LMFAO OMG."
Sunday, December 26, 2010
I wont be able to get on for awhile...so here goes
updates:
Ben Copeland:
Moved to Cleveland. He kind of abandoned me. But i know it's for the best. I miss him alot and rarely see him, but hopefully he'll get his shit figured out, and will come back. It's only made me realize that i love him more though. So i guess that's good. He's an amazing guy, I dont think i've ever met another like him, infact I'm pretty positive. I could see myself spending forever with him,if that's how the future decides to go.
Jessica Smith:
She's my life. I know she'll read this. But She's became everything and more to me over these past few months. Ever since she said "i know how you feel, and i
dont wanna let you down. I dont want you to feel defeated, i just cant let that happen, not as your best friend" and over the past few months, i've realized more than ever that she's a lifer. Meaning, she's not going anywhere. We know
each other like the back of our hands. Maybe even better. I dont know where i'd be without her. <3 I'm so glad she's around.
My mom:
I miss her so so much. I'm down here with her actually. We've had a great week. It'll be coming to an end soon. But i'm happy that she's happy down here. I'm happy that maybe without me, she'll live the life she's always wanted. :) I miss her so so much i know my life could be easier with her around, but i'm too much like
her and too stubborn to go that route.
My dad:
Still very sick. When i think about it, it makes me cry. Mom and i both think he wont make it much longer. That makes me sad. Esp when i think of my future. Walking down my wedding isle with no dad, god, im tearing up already. Or having grand children, i know he'd be an awesome grand father. :( anyway. he's doing better than he has the past few months but it seems the sickness never goes away. I hope it does, i really do.
Kevin:
Ass. Hole. Got in a huge argument. Told him everything that was dying to get out over the past two years. How our sex never meant anything, and how i was used, and how he's fake, and he'll never ammount to anything. And etc etc etc. We all know how i feel about kevin... i've made it clear.
My life:
it's really hard.
I feel defeated alot.
I try to push on through it,
encourage myself to stay strong.
But it gets me down just
thinkin about it.
Gettin no where, fast.
Wishing i was getting somewhere,
somehow.
Feelin hopeless,
scared, alone at times.
but with the help of the
few who're there,
i manage,
and for the most part,
try to look on the brightside withthe hope
i have left.
Ben Copeland:
Moved to Cleveland. He kind of abandoned me. But i know it's for the best. I miss him alot and rarely see him, but hopefully he'll get his shit figured out, and will come back. It's only made me realize that i love him more though. So i guess that's good. He's an amazing guy, I dont think i've ever met another like him, infact I'm pretty positive. I could see myself spending forever with him,if that's how the future decides to go.
Jessica Smith:
She's my life. I know she'll read this. But She's became everything and more to me over these past few months. Ever since she said "i know how you feel, and i
dont wanna let you down. I dont want you to feel defeated, i just cant let that happen, not as your best friend" and over the past few months, i've realized more than ever that she's a lifer. Meaning, she's not going anywhere. We know
each other like the back of our hands. Maybe even better. I dont know where i'd be without her. <3 I'm so glad she's around.
My mom:
I miss her so so much. I'm down here with her actually. We've had a great week. It'll be coming to an end soon. But i'm happy that she's happy down here. I'm happy that maybe without me, she'll live the life she's always wanted. :) I miss her so so much i know my life could be easier with her around, but i'm too much like
her and too stubborn to go that route.
My dad:
Still very sick. When i think about it, it makes me cry. Mom and i both think he wont make it much longer. That makes me sad. Esp when i think of my future. Walking down my wedding isle with no dad, god, im tearing up already. Or having grand children, i know he'd be an awesome grand father. :( anyway. he's doing better than he has the past few months but it seems the sickness never goes away. I hope it does, i really do.
Kevin:
Ass. Hole. Got in a huge argument. Told him everything that was dying to get out over the past two years. How our sex never meant anything, and how i was used, and how he's fake, and he'll never ammount to anything. And etc etc etc. We all know how i feel about kevin... i've made it clear.
My life:
it's really hard.
I feel defeated alot.
I try to push on through it,
encourage myself to stay strong.
But it gets me down just
thinkin about it.
Gettin no where, fast.
Wishing i was getting somewhere,
somehow.
Feelin hopeless,
scared, alone at times.
but with the help of the
few who're there,
i manage,
and for the most part,
try to look on the brightside withthe hope
i have left.
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