I feel like

This is the time in my life,
where things get rough.
Where I'm struggling to get through,
and I don't know what to do.
It seems all these decisions
are being thrown at me,
and I have to choose which one I feel is right.
Things seem more stressful,
I feel more down.
I don't feel like sharing this,
but I have no other choice now.
All these feelings and thoughts
bottling up inside.
I'm so tired, so stressed.
I'm lost I dont know what to do,
or if the path I want,
is the one I'll choose.
I'm at this time in my life,
where everything I think is right,
will eventually feel wrong.
and I'll be stuck once again,
singing the same old tune,
same sad song.

There's a few things that I just cant get off my mind.
It seems I'm losing all the people that used to be my life
and I'm starting over new. I'm not sure this is what I'm ready
to do, but it seems the only choice. It feels too late to fix
things.
I came to the conclusion, the person I used to love most, has
finally moved on and forgotten about me. The guy I called my
brother, the one I counted on until the end. The one I saw myself
being with, in one way or another for the rest of my life,
I've finally lost him, and I just chose to acknowledge it.
and it hurts the most.
I'm taking these OGT's, they seem to get only harder. As I take
them, my past years flow by my mind, and I want to cry. I
should've tried harder, if I'd have known the paths I would've
chosen, I would've done better, I would've tried harder.
All these things, just seem so pointless,
and I feel I've done wrong to so many people, and that
I cant make them better.
I just wish things would've be made so hard,
and this time wouldnt be so trying.