Thoughts

I hate knowing that anything can be easily faked,
and that any bad intentions can be disguised.
I hate knowing that things can change, with one thought.
It's pretty scary.

I get pretty scared a lot.
Afraid I always counteracted some sort of trigger,
and I did something wrong somewhere,
to make someone change their mind.
I'm always afraid of losing everyone,
Afraid of screwing up.

I'm afraid I'll never be good enough,
afraid I'll be a nobody,
that deserves nothing.

I'm so afraid to be by myself,
Because I'm insecure no one will like me.

Sometimes, I wish people could say more,
express more, how much I'm loved.
Sometimes, I wish people wouldn't hold back
on the things they're thinking.
Sometimes, I wish you wouldn't worry about
being so tough, and just come straight out.
Sometimes, I wish I would just let go of
somethings, and learn to fully trust.


I feel like I'm wasting life away,
holding back, because I'm just so scared,
scared of it all.
People, they just don't understand,
I feel as if I'm walking all alone sometimes,
and no one will ever notice,
because i'll never say,
becasue I'm just so scared,
to give it all away.