Things I need to say

So it's 5 months today...and I spent it alone.
"I'll be there at 3"
Must've been a fool to believe it.
Because people, shouldn't believe the ones they love, right?
Lately, people have let me down.
Never did I ever expect you would.
I've seen a change in the things you do, and the things you say.
Though I love you, all the same.

I remember the times, you were so crazy about me,
it was like you couldn't breath with out me being there,
without talking to me.
I remember when you would tell me all those cute little things
"I can't even think of any other girls, youre so perfect, you just took
that power away from me" "I love you soo much,the rest of the world doesn't matter"
"I'm going to turn this music off. Talk to me."
I remember you would introduce me "THIS is the one, this is my girlfriend"

But now, it's like you could care less whether I'm there, whether you talk to me. Seems like you'd prefer to play video games. So I just don't talk. If only you knew I can't breath.
Now it seems like, everyone else matters, more than me.
I would call and ask if you want to hang out,but it's your schedule that's so jumbled, so it's up to YOU whether we hang out.
Sure, it doesn't have to be every second of every day.
But a little more than what's happening now, would be nice.

I just want some appreciation. Sure, I can't give you everything, because I don't have much to give. and sometimes, i won't do exactly what you'd like, like make you waffles, or straighten your hair. But I give as much as I can, and sometimes I feel like shit, because it seems like you don't notice.

You always ask me if there's anything about you that bothers me,
and it's starting to show. You really change alot when we're around
people. When we're by ourselves, it's like you really care,
then we go somewhere, and it's like you care about everyone so much more than me.
I can't wait until you get a car, because I'm hoping things will change.
Like in the mustang that night, when you picked me up, just because you wanted
to be with me. and it was just you and me in the car, it felt like everything was
right, like that was how it was supposed to be.

I know you said you try to be tough, and not show how "crazy" you are for me. Why? Do you think it makes you seem not as good? Because honestly, i love when you SHOW how important I am to you, when you tell me how important I am. For example, if I were surrounded by a bunch of my friends, and talked to them, instead of you, just left you to sit there, aht the bar eating chex mix, it'd kinda suck.
BECAUSE when i go places wiht you, I'm there for you, not for them.
I'm in LOVE with you, not everyone else.
and I just want you to feel that way too.
I want you to be proud to be my boyfried, or at least pretend you are.
I have this belief that you;d be just as fine without me





i love you more than anything. Because of that, you can break my heart like anything else. you can make my emotions go from one extreme to the next, with
the tiniest little thing, and sometimes, i just wish you'd realize the way the things
you do affect me.