Ugh

When I look at you pictures
it makes me sick,
Whenever I think of you,
my heart rips.
Your face disgusts me,
and it haunts my dreams.
I can't believe what came of you,
Not only did you rip my heart in two,
I can't even recognize you.
Betweent he person you are now,
and the person you once where.
My love for you has detured,
but the remnants of memories
they still remain,
at any mention or sound of your name.
The though of your kiss,
makes my skin crawl,
and my heart cruble.
To think I accepted someone
such as yourself in my life
To destroy me, and ruin me.
But here you are,
as different as ever,
I can't look at you,
I gave my all to you,
and you took it all in,
I gave you my life,
all that I had left,
every little piece,
every small detail,
the only thing I had left,
and To look at pictures of you,
and to know they make me sick,
I still remember,
every moment,
every smile,
every kiss,
every touch,
every embrace,
every look on your face.
I still remember that day too.
It's so hard to believe,
someone such as myself,
could've fallen in love with someone
such as yourself.

I realize now when you told me these things,
I realized who you are, and who you've become, and how much I wasted my time,
and it's these things I'll never forget

"Its high time i stop trying so hard at shit i'm no good at.
Like caring, because i honestly don't give a fuck
and i havent for a long time
i've been so obsessed with holding on to whatever sentimental and nostalgic chunks of myself that linger like ghosts in my mind that i never realised how fucking awesome my life really is now. Nothing before now matters. No one before now matters.
i had fun but it wasnt worth it
so now if you'll allow me i owe this to you.
Consider every promise i ever made to you broken
Consider all the plans we ever made null and void
we're not friends
i won't hear you out or stand up for you or take your side
on the contrary
i'll listen to you cry as i stand by the wayside and watch you rot
you are alone now
i've moved on"

"Kayla, whehter it be doors, paths, decisions, choices. Its the same shit. You can't have your fucking cake and eat it too. You can go down one road and i'll be there, you can go down another and i won't and your pissed at me because you went the wrong way? Thats fucking stupid. We're not the same. We never will be. You'll always be smarter and more rational than me, but i'll always be stronger than you. And youre a spoiled selfish ignorant child if you think you can be who you want and do what you want and never have to answer for it. I want to paint the walls with your head and a shotgun. You can take your road and have your fun and you can do it alone. And you can prove me right again. And you can be another notch in my belt. Congratulations.

You'll just be something more to forget.
You'll be time well-wasted.
You'll be another point in the process of elimination

Let's be honest
wherever you are
YOU WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME"