I knew

I had to do it,
and that it's for the best.
But is it wrong to miss someone,
is it some kind of test?
Part of me knew what had to be done,
Part me wishing those other things,
would be gone.
The other part wishes, that he'd have fought me,
Tried to keep me,
Let me know I was important in some way.
But i know, that in this case,
I was never important,
not yesterday
not today,
and not tomorrow.
God I hope, that what i did was right.
Please please,
someone help me through the night