Monday, December 29, 2008

I am so pissed

I just dont fucking.... UNDERSTAND.
There's certain logics that just... dont make sense!!!
Like for example.
My mothers logic.
I need a job, I know perfectly well that I NEED A JOB
I need a car to get to this job. I need a damn job to fix the car.
"ask your dad for money to fix the car."
Okay that makes sense.
Let's use my dad.
I barely talk to my dad, I DONT ask my dad for money.
"Oh hey Dad, How're you.?" "Hey sweetheart. How're you?"
"I'm good dad. I know I dont talk to you enough but mom and I are broke,
and I need a job [dad says i shouldnt get a job] but in order to do that I need to fix my car [car that my dad says is shhould pay for] but I dont have money to fix my car and I was wondering if you could help me out [even though you dont agree with parents paying for chilrens cars]?"
No. Okay. that's not how that's going to fucking work. It's just so frustrating.
I wish my mom would stop procrastinating. Take me out [since I cant do it by myself], help me look for a job. Help me work it out.
Because there's many reasons behind my argument:
1. I'm a teenager, I want things, and want to do things that cost money.
2. My mom is on her own now, needs to stop using my step dads money, she cant afford the things I want.
3. My mom needs help. She also wants things, that she buys, that she shouldnt be buying because we need to down grade our living arrangements, because we cant keep living like nothings changed.
4. I need a job because I'm a growing girl, there's things she cant afford, for example my birth control, the clothes I want, and I need.
Not to mention the things she needs.
5. We both want a life because she's now living like a teen,she wants to date, she's working because she needs the money.
and I understnd that but I need a mother too, that will listen to my logic.

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