It's been a while.

"It's been a while
since I've seen the way,
the candles light your face,
it's been a while,
but I can STILL remember
juuuust the way you taste
but I'll update as far back as I can remember.

December 15:
Was a good day, but not really.
It was a year since I got rid of something
very dear to me.
and I wrote a poem about it here it is

It's been a full year, and the memory's so clear.
Memory I've held so dear, still fucking brings me to tears
When I think of the day you held me so near,
So close so dear.
It's been a year...still have wounds and scars.
Thinking about how we got so far,
and how torn apart our hearts are.
Well, MY heart is.
and how difficult being in love is
Now I regret it, cant forget it.
stab me open, bleed me dry.
Tonight tonight, I'll cry and cry,
and pray I die.

Then the night before I wrote this little poem
for a kid I used to know:



December 16: SISTERS BIRTHDAY.

December 17:
I saw Kevin today.
The whole day I anticipated seeing him and wrote him
cute little poems.
Then we went to church,
where I got to watch him play basketball.
[where some kid tried hitting on me. ew]
Kevin's so amazing, really.
Then him and chris chilled at my house 'till 1030.
Where we talked about random things with his head in my lap.
:D
[i love him]
he makes me feel so confident lately,
knowing someone loves me for me,
gives someone confidence for the world,
and makes you strive more, to be yourself.

cute little poems:
You're my inspiration,
My hearts....electrification.
My aching bones,their vacation.
You're the best boy to walk into
in my generation.

If only I could express,
how I feel,
I'd shock you with my words
Time will show,
my love is real.

If only I could explain,
as I lay upon the floor,
how much I mean it,
when I say "I love you more"