2008

As I sit here in my moms huge bed,
I reflect upon my past year,
all the things that have changed,
that will change,
that I want to change.
Contemplating about your New Years Resolution,
Trying to make it a good one.
and here's what's crossing my mind.

Things that made me happy:
-The snow falling on my hair
-The latest nights talking on the phone, to the guy I thought was my life,
when really I was clinging to him, because I was clinging to Baton Rouge with desperateness
-The day Lexi came up to ask me to go to the mall. How random, but life saving.
-Learning from my mistakes.
-Summer beginnning with my groups of friends.
-Field trips.
-Going to my dad's and not fighting about anything.
-My step brother actually saying 3 sentences to me.
-Realizing I should hate you, but I forigive you
-Coming home to see my mother when I missed her so much
-Dying my hair of course
-Starting school, ready to give it another shot.
-Meeting Jessica
-Making new friends
-Got over Andrew.
-Realizing who my real friends were
-Art
-Getting my license
-Jessica's birthday
-Kevin
-Becoming friends with Nina all over again.


Moments I'll always remember and want to re-live:
-Going to winter formal with you guys, and having the best of times.
-All those times I got ridiculously happy, because you called.
-You staying the night, reading that sex book with Alex on the phone
-Snow sledding down my hill, AFTER making a barricade because you didnt wanna go into the lake.
-1 am in the morning jumping in the ice cold lake water, then the 3 of us cramming in my tub, for hot water.
-Pretending to cut me open to opperate on me
-Taking pictures in the show.
-Skinny Dipping at 11pm at night, in the lake, jumping off our floaties. Lmao.
-Baby sitting kids that rolled everywhere while you tried to change their diapers.
-People stalking us at the mall, so we stalked them back, they stalked us, then we got rid of them by making out infront of them. Lmao.
-Taking pictures topless in your room just because it was funny
-When Wyatt was talking to me while I didnt have pants on *talking talking* "Oh. YOu dont uh... have pants on..." *walks away embarassed*
-Going to the movies with all of you throwing popcorn
-Walking in two foot of snow to the corner store for coffee.
-Staying at Jen's confessing secrets
-Falling asleep ontop of you. Lmao
-Skating, then recieving the hugest bruise on my chin
-Fitting into the same shirt
-Kissing upside down
-Going to Cedar point with choir, charter bus.
-Getting a huge sun burn, so you let me borrow you're huge shirt,
that I changed into, infront of everyone.
-Not wearing pants on the ride back because I was so uncomfortable, but you didnt freak out, you just stayed chill and pretended you didnt notice
-Truth or dare on the way back.
-Teaching Courtney how to kiss.
-Being in choir, throwing things down my shirt
-Rolling down the isles while the play was going on
-Playing in the snow, where I tackled you like a tiger
-Getting detentions together
-Making fun of Houk
-Making you smile when you were down
-being at the fair with you, where you cried, and I held you, but I got to know more about you, and I'll always keep it to myself.
-Realizing I really liked you
-You breaking my heart, made me realize, It's not worth it.
-Homecoming, wanting to beat her up
-You coming over where we walked around the lake talking about moving, and all the hurt and pain.
-Flirting with you in health class, even if we were both taken
-Eating Doritos while on the phone. Purposely eating them obnoxiously.
-Walking on the ice of the lake
-Talking about people with you, and our theories on life.
-Jimmye confessing his love for me, quite late
-Being on the motorcycle and four wheeler with you
-being in your workshop listening to 80's music while you cleaned, dancing like the dad I used to know
-Being at the restaurant, my step brother talking to my dad, I just listening learing more and more about Nathan.
-Grandmom tripping about how my dogs but doesnt reach the ground
-How happy my mom was when she started talking to troy
-Standing in a creek with nothing but underwear
-Fingerpainting on each other
-Going to the football game, were I serenaded you.
-laying in bed with you, all cuddled up watching the forgotten
-Your dad apologizing, how happy you were
-Eating our pizza with our ranch
-You becoming my new best friend when no one wanted to be there
-getting my license
-Going to the mall with you where we sat in weird massage chairs talking about sexual things
-Making fun of people
-A boy coming up to us at the mall, totally cute
-Me tripping about it ^^^ that night. Like "wtf?"
-Me going to Nina's for the first time in months.
-Talking to you for the first time.
-Talking to you every day after that.
-Waking up to you still on the phone
-"uhm" "Uhm" "uhm" "Uh..." "Uh uh au ghhghaghh uhm"
- HUGHGH!
-Khaos energy
-Kissing you for the first time
-Talking on the phone 24/7 not realizing I'd soon without a doubt be in love with you.
-Driving to the movies with you drunk moms car at 12 in the morning to see Twilight
-Discovering, they're so much better when called Pizza pillows
-Making fun of Mrs. Peters
-hitting you in the boobs.
-Mr. Amedeos boner that JP HAD to point out
-Baby JUICE!!!!
-BABY!!?!
-Chocolate man.
-"It's like....having sex with a baby"
-P.E
-My birthday, at Fridays
-Miley Cyrus in the car with you
-Going to my first show with Kevin
-My mom letting you spend the night, where I layed comfortably in your arms
-switching pants
-Beer Pong
-Watching you play basketball.
-Did I say my tattoo?
-You biting off my thumbnail because I lied to you about the ending of a movie
-Getting Icees when it's fucking cold outside
-Making you eggs for breakfast
-sorting out our skittles
-Talking about your friend being a hoe
-Sitting in the car going ot Cleveland
-Telling you I love you
-Singing songs like crazy maniacs because that's how we do
-Putting together a puzzle we bought from It'z a puzzle
-Riding bikes to McDonalds
-Walking to your house from Massilion panera in snow where Mason was hitting on me
-My dog punching you in the face while we were laying in bed
-Frank ripping my pj's
-You giving me my monster energy drinks for christmas
-my two [one pound] bags of skittles